Before Tomorrow

My Life, in reverse

Life feels like it moves backward.

We want something badly, believing it will finally make us whole.

And when we get it, we pause and ask ..

What did I really achieve? Why does this feel so small??/??

Because the value was never in the thing itself.

It was in the want, the effort, the hope that carried us there.

A man who earns 500rs for a peaceful dinner with his family

is richer in that moment

than the man who believes money can buy everything and still have to sit alone( I am alone now, doesn't meanI am supre rich).

One spends his day toward life.

The other spends his life postponing it.

After seeing this, I look at myself.

When I see others riding a Honda, I feel that familiar urge to buy one too.

Not out of pride, but out of wanting to feel that ease, that freedom.

Most of the time I stop myself.

Unlike many, I do not have Dada’s money to fall back on.

I know how heavy money feels when you earn it yourself.

I know how slowly it comes and how quickly it disappears.

Because of that, I think twice. Sometimes three times.(inspired by 'tootimes' by 1975)

I ask myself whether I really need it or whether I am just borrowing desire from others(Not at all).

And yet, I know something else is true.

If that day I do buy Honda with my own effort,

I will enjoy it.

Not because of the bike, but because of the journey behind it.

Because restraint teaches value, not denial.

Because wanting something and earning it honestly

is also a quiet form of peace.

For your Honda go to offie tomorrow F..

Meaning isn’t stored in success.

It’s stored in connection..

between work and purpose,

between effort and love,

between today and what actually matters.

and importantly

Life is not about having it all figured out.

Life is about staying honest with what makes ME FEEL ALIVE

Sometimes I need near death experience to feel alive,sometimes seeing someone idk being happy, somwtimes unwantedly going out to see new rooms and realising current apartment is mych better except seeing the same people of that company all days,

sometimes doing a new thing a day instead of the routine.

Routine is slavery, Go to Hell routine

But Routine is required for somethings I need to achieve.

now I have started telling things ->>, routine ,no routine, routine ,

which means time to stop this

Goodbye for now F.. Will comeback next Sunday or whenveer u want

Tomorrow is a new day and new opportunity

~F